Scottish Tory chief Ruth Davidson has stated she by no means desires to be prime minister as a result of she values her “mental health too much”.
In an interview with the Sunday Times Magazine, she revealed her battle with self-harm, suicidal ideas and despair as a teen.
The MSP, who’s expecting her first little one, additionally dominated out a peerage or turning into an MP at Westminster.
She stated the concept of leaving her little one in Edinburgh was “actually offensive”.
Ms Davidson introduced she and her partner Jen Wilson had been expecting a baby in April, after undergoing IVF treatment.
She is expected to provide delivery in October, and has introduced her plans to take 4 or 5 months of maternity depart.
Ruling out taking the helm at Downing Street, the 39-year-old, who’s releasing her memoirs within the paper, stated: “You have to want it, and I don’t want to be prime minister”.
In 2016, whereas David Cameron was PM, she described the position as “the loneliest job in the world”.
Speaking frankly about her teenage years, Ms Davidson stated her psychological heath suffered after a boy from her village took his personal life when she was 17 years outdated.
“I went into a total tailspin”, she stated.
She stated she began hurting herself, “punching walls… drinking far, far, too much and becoming belligerent and angry”.
She was identified with medical despair a year later, however stated the medicine meant she had “dark, terrible dreams” and “couldn’t tell what was real”.
In her second year finding out English at Edinburgh University, she turned so afraid of sleep she stated she spent a complete term residing nocturnally.
She stated her despair “was like a smothering black blanket over my head, cutting out the sky”.
“It was heavy, constricting, suffocating. It took away hope and energy and life.”
The MSP stated she combated her psychological health points by exercising usually, moderating her alcohol consumption, going again to church, and “most importantly to me, I threw away my pills”.
But she stated she was nonetheless “frightened of going back to the psychological place [she] once inhabited”.
“When I have a period of heightened anxiety, or I can feel the weight of the black blanket start to descend, I go back to what I know works for me: structure, exercise, forward momentum, measurable outcomes. Sometime’s that’s hard in a job that’s 100 miles an hour.”